Saturday, March 6, 2010

Bashelf: My little/big sister



Pandora current song: Black Balloon, by The Goo Goo Dolls

So you may have been thinking, "Britni hasn't talked about her sister...not even once yet!" Well, that's because I was waiting to write a whole post on her. She's my younger, taller sister who will turn 21 on March 10, 1010 and I'm bummed I'll miss her big day.

What's Bashelf you ask? Well, when I was little, I couldn't pronounce her middle name, Michelle. For some reason, the name has stuck with her and will for the rest of her life. It truly made me smile when she put "Bashelf" on her high school sports gear as her name, instead of Ashley.

Ashley is a woman of character who means more to me than anything in the whole world. There are not enough words to explain how amazing she is inside and out. Her heart is full of love for every person around her. She reaches out to others and is a natural helper to people, even if they are strangers. She doesn’t believe me and sometimes she tries to hide her kind side, but she really is one of the most caring people I know. She would take a bullet for her dearest friends. Her love for helping others shows through friendships and actions. All she knows that she wants to do is to help people. Whether that is becoming a doctor, teacher, psychologist, counselor, or community service specialist, as long as she can help those who are less fortunate or those who are in need of help, she’ll be by their side.

I look up to her in so many ways. She is her own person and won’t conform to ANYTHING no matter what the situation is. Even though she can easily snap back with her smart remarks, she is always thinking and always one step ahead of anyone around her. I grew up wanting to be like everyone else. It didn’t hit me until Ashley told me a former teacher saw my confidence and was so proud that I had become a bold, self-aware woman and he noticed this the last time I visited. I hadn’t realized my lack of self-confidence was even apparent to those around me. But not Ashley. She has always known who she is and who she doesn’t want to be. If you are on her bad side, you probably deserved it and she won’t let you get away with it.

She doesn’t like new situations and dealing with people she doesn’t know. This shocks me because she is so outgoing with her close friends. It saddened me when she didn’t want to join a sorority because it has been a large part of my life and I know the amazing perks that come with it. However, when it comes to my sister, she won’t do anything if I had anything to do with it. She grew up being “Britni's sister” and I’m sure had a lot to live up to, so especially in high school she rebelled with any teacher that called her “Britni's sister.” She learned to become
Ashley, which meant she steered clear of anything I touched. She has that mind that keeps her a step in front of everyone else that gives her that edge that others don’t have.

I miss living close to my sister. I can’t wait to be back in Pullman with her in August 2011. It should be this August, but work won’t allow me. I think about it every day. My sister is one of my best friends through thick and thin. I love talking to her and knowing what’s going on in her life. It was the hardest four years of my life away from her during college, especially my first year when I felt she needed me the most. However, being apart has brought us closer
together. We are so much alike, yet so different. She is my other half. She is so beautiful and has grown up to be an absolutely amazing person. I love and miss her so much!

I keep saying I need to go to sleep, but I'm so excited about this blog that I can't stop!

Live boldly challenging status quo!

Pandora current song: Promise of a Lifetime, by Kutless

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